Day 15 - What Am I Doing?

by Michael on 11/05/09 at 10:53 am

Day 15 - What Am I Doing?

I’m getting rather pissed with myself. Here it is, day 15, and I’m still farting around. I can’t seem to find a groove with this weight loss program — or won’t! I’m stuck in this pattern where I’m running a fairly decent program Monday through Thursday, but then come Friday everything starts to slide because it’s the weekend. I’m not sure what the weekend has to do anything; I do exactly the same things on the weekend as during the week and I have just as much to do on Saturday as Monday. I work on the Web and I work at home for myself, so every day is a work day.

Today I was hoping to get up at 5 a.m. to get started on my day. I love it when I can get up early like that; I feel so much more productive. Today, something woke me up at 4 a.m.; I just suddenly realized, I’m wide awake and I’m lying here. What time is it? I tried to stay in bed for a few minutes and savour that extra hour until the alarm beeped, but my head was full of stuff. No use fighting it. So I’m here planning my day.

I had a talk with my friend Mary about my current angst. She’s a smart woman and really seems to be able to cut through the garbage and hone in on the issue, but at the same time, she’s often very careful about not telling me what to do, especially where my business is concerned. She’s like a psychiatrist that way, although better than a shrink because she actually says something. So as a sounding board, she’s always been invaluable. But more and more, she’s becoming a great friend. (I always have my greatest friendships with women.)

So Mary suggested that I move my workouts to the end of my day. A problem I’ve been grappling with is that working out in the middle of my day just eats up too much time. For instance, the other I day I got up and worked for a while, then I had an hour workout at 11 a.m.; eating lunch and showering took another hour, then I was exhausted and needed a quick nap — another hour — and finally, by the time I got up, talked with my partner for a bit, and had a snack, another hour was gone. And by this time, I didn’t feel like getting back to work. And this happens repeated. And Mary has been through the same thing and has, for months, being doing her workouts at the end of her workday. And she’s had greater success with this schedule. So this week I’m going to try working out at 4 or 5 p.m. and seeing how that goes. That should give me a greater chunk of uninterrupted time to focus on my work, and if I’m getting enough done I should feel less stressed about that aspect of my life.

I have to sit down in the next couple of days and make some plans for my weekend. I need to schedule some activities so that the weekend feels more normal for me and I break this cycle of throwing caution to the wind on Friday.

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One Response to “Day 15 - What Am I Doing?”

  1. Rachael

    May 11th, 2009

    Hey

    Great idea about moving the workouts - I really hope it becomes easier Mike, sometimes its just about finding that groove. Hopefully, you’ve found it now!

    Weekends are a bloody nightmare in terms of temptation. Its when I am the most likely to lapse, I sometimes REALLY want to just flop around. Working from home puts a totally different spin on that, its got to be harder, especially if those workdays seep into the weekend - you get no rest at all to recharge your batteries. Its the same stuff everyday - same cycles maybe.

    Well, here’s to a new cycle! Bonne Chance!

    Rach x

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